They don’t tell you that heart break is like tidal wave. Sometimes you can see it coming but often times you can’t. You can’t tell until it’s right on top of you and it begins to drown you, ripping the breath from your lungs and the life from your body.
No one tells you that the tidal wave is 1000 emotions that hit you all at once, and each of them have their own distinct voice, screaming out so loud you can’t even focus on one.; Anger, resentment, fear, loneliness…and the worst of all, an endless aching that feels as deep as the sea.
Self doubt. Where every single flaw and insecurity you’ve ever had in your entire life is suddenly there again, all at once reminding you as they rear their ugly heads that no matter how old you get, or how far you’ve come, you can never escape them.
And all you want to do is yell, drown them out, make the voices stop. But you can’t yell loud enough because that heartbreak has taken away your voice and it’s left you silent.
People don’t tell you how, in a few days, you’ll start to think “Yeah, I got this.” “I can do this.” “This isn’t so bad.” Until that emptiness sneaks up on you again, that pit in the base of your stomach, and your heart pumps too slow.
The smell of cologne in a shop at the mall, a song, a joke, a certain sound or the way someone moves or a habit that is so ingrained in you because of them. The dam breaks and the water rushes forward, taking you and drowning you in that heartbreak once more.
how to get over heartbreak: (tips from Victoria Morgan)
1. go to a museum and realize other things have history too
2. be okay without being okay because you were okay before
3. watch Jane Austen adaptation until your eyes become raisins
4. talk to yourself, in your home, at the store, in your car, because there are things you never got to say and you don't have to swallow them
5. join Tinder, make your profile picture a model, don't talk to anyone just swipe, because it can feel like killing ants
6. write, write the same metaphors over and over because there is only so many ways to describe being destroyed
7. cry, because there is nothing shameful about clearing your eyes
8. take all your broken pieces and build yourself a tower because you are a queen
9. watch every chick flick movie that has kissing just to try to get his stamp off your lips
10. Fake it till you make it, everything is going to be okay
songs to listen to when your heart stings:
1. Don't worry about me - Frances
2. Last Kiss - Taylor Swift
4. Happy - Natasha Bettingfield
5. send my love - Adele
I hope one day my heart will tell me the truth and be more like my brain
but please keep it optimistic
because heartbreak sucks
and I don't want any more things to hurt my heart
Sincerely, Paislee Jane
in the end she knew he loved her-
Sincerely, Paislee Jane
in the end she knew he loved her-
not
