A blue hue and wet eyes, it's just me

It's freezing cold, I sit in my room at 6:38 pm with the lights off, sad. Fridays were supposed to be happy. The covers are like chains pulling me deeper and deeper into the depths of my raw heart. My left eye has been stinging all day long and I think I know why. I spent too many dreary days wasting time. Why do we waste time on things that will eventually hurt us?

I thought that I could over look the past

I thought maybe it would all work itself out

I thought that I was lucky

But no. I am naive, I try to change things like the seasons change from green to orange. But you can't, you simply can not change things. I'm really needing some hope right now, and as I write this it makes me feel a little better. I still feel blindsided like I got side swiped by the black Toyota. I'm so young in heart, a ambitious person. But what did that ever do for me. My ambitions landed me in jail. I sit in a prison I created for myself, I'm all alone, I don't want to talk about it, or else I will cry.

I need my alone time, thanks Nelson for having us make that page of things to do when you're sad, I'll be really needing it tonight.

Sincerely (the way naive, and sad) Paislee Jane